5th year Anniversary..

Today is my 5th year wedding anniversary. Nothing planned. But major change in my household is going to happen.... because I finally getting a full time maid.
Hope all will be well.

Happy Anniversary dear!. xoxo :P

Its December..

before you know it, life has just passed by so fast that now it is December..
I've done so many things yet feels like not achieving anything yet. Do you ever feel like that too.?
Now it is December and I have so many plans I wanna do.. here are my lists :

1. setting up the Christmas tree with Chloe,
2. tidy my house (as always),
3. make a donation to people in need,
4. having a Christmas dinner with family, and
last but most important is...
5. to be happy and grateful with what I have.

Thank You Lord for December. :)

Chloe was hospitalised..

and so I spent my weekend in the hospital with her. She was so demanding and threw her best tantrum of the year. I was so exhausted that the situation made me realised that my everyday routine is much easier compared to the one day I spent with her in hospital.
Yes, she is my joy and my precious daughter. I love her and no matter how hard my day is.. I still love her so very much.
She was sick and she needs me more than anything.
She hugged me and clinged to me to sleep.
I guess when I post 'Lord help me' the day before.. God really helped me
to realise that all is well and I just need another revelation from Him to understand that He has done all the best for me.
So thank you Lord. for giving me the revelation.
My days are easy because He has protected us from all sicknesses and keeping us all healthy all year long.
I am thankful because of that.
Thank You Lord.
And as I post this, my Chloe has been better and back to her normal energetic girl that I know of.

Happy day everyone!

My thoughts

Last night Chloe was sleepless. Tired with her blocked nose.. and neverending cough.
I also cannot sleep well. I hope she is getting well soon... but it seems the cough getting from bad to worse.
This afternoon, Xinlong bring her to see doctor one more time. and to get her nebulised and x-rayed.

I hate it. I hate this moment when I am working (in office) and cant help but thinking about how it will be better if I have the time to clean my house more often, clean our bedroom more, tidy it all, and all that sort of things which might help in keeping my Chloe healthy.

Truth is, the more I do, the more it get messed. Just like that. It only last 10minutes.. or less than that.
I am exhausted. Sometimes I feel I am alone in this journey of parenting... or mothering. Everyone seems getting it right.

Lord help me please.

Sewing!

Love it :P

In the midst of my hectic daily life..

I wish I have more time for myself...
to sleep
to cuddle my daughter
to play with her
read with her
sing with her
and by end of the day.. I wish I had more time to be with her.
but this is how it goes in my real life.

7.30am to 7.30pm go to work.
8pm dinner
8.30 - 9.30pm play with my daughter, I take a bath
10pm laundry & cleaning time (my daughter will be on the bed with her ipad)
11.30 pm Chloe sleeps, I am exhausted
12 midnite, we all sleep..
....
3am I wake up, to have a 'me time' which is sewing
5.30am tired but contented. and fall asleep once more..
till morning (7am) comes and I'm ready to start another day.

Yes, it is hectic ..
but I am a working mom. and mothering never ends when my day jobs end.
For a full time mom, I envy you for having so much time for you and your kids.
Yes I know it is tiring but it is understandably worth more than anything in the world.. at least by my opinion.
I hope I can be JUST a full time mother.
But for now... full time working mother is what I do.

Still awake @ 3 am...

and this is what I do.

cut pattern for Chloe's new dress

Yeah.
I'm feeling productive already this week. hehe

Cousins

Last night I cannot sleep well. So I grab my phone and tried to beautified my Chloe's photos (taken using Iphone).
Here is the result :

aren't they cute? hehe

No wonder people always hooked by their Iphones. haha
Now I know why.
 

My thoughts today...

 

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Bedroom gallery wall

I like to decorate my house. So whenever I got the chance (or time) I will try to update here and there. Mostly is on the walls because I want my house to feel like home and not hotel. So here it is.

Before :

 and the After : 

 

So what do you think?

This is the view from our bed so at the end of each day before sleep we have a good reminder of what is the most important in our life. It is our family. :)