To not compare

This morning I felt terribly upset.. over small tiny little thing which is always said by my husband everytime got the chance. My husband always and always and always said my hair is not smooth and very thick and rough. He did it all the time and never realized it hurts me.

All the time.

I am angry. Upset but mostly sad because deep down I know I cant change it. It is just my hair 'type'. I tried applying some moisturiser, do some rebonding, cut it short. Nothing change.

Most hurting is when he said it and compare it with our Chloe's hair. If you want to tell me Chloe's hair is very nice, smooth and all the good things, I am more than happy. But please dont compare it with mine. It hurts. Even more hurting when you said it infront of your mother, which of course make it feel worse than anything.

I am really angry. But I dont know why. Jealousy creeps in I think..

So when I reach office I on my computer and find some peace (which I know I'll find by reading some good stuff/blogs) and first thing I type is this blog : http://pearlsandgrace.blogspot.com/

And God speaks to me. thru that blog. How He created me and loves me all the time.
I cry. It is so true. God shows me to be grateful of what I had instead of comparing with others.
I cry again. Now I feel okay to be just ordinary 'me' . The only 'me' in the world. God loves me.

Thank You God for your answer. It speaks directly to me. No matter how I put it in words, I cant describe how You have worked it out way before I even feel this way. ( you may notice that the blog was written on 11 Nov 2011 and I just read it now. at this moment. )

You are wonderful God and I am blessed every single day. THank You God.

Phoebe's Birthday

Happy Birthday my dear niece. Wishing you all the best things in life!

Breakfast on sunday

After church at suntec, we went for breakfast at burger king

My pledge to GOD

I want to be a better person. God please help me..

Lunch w my hubby at amoy st

Since I changed my job I've been able to go lunch with my hubby every once in awhile. Today we went to eat yong tau fu near his workplace. It is very nice!

Rethinking of my purpose in marriage

Should I or should I not get a ...?
We always argue on small things like : "why you always tidy and retidy and retidy and forgetting where u put ur stuff?"
I would like to see the end of this.
God, I know You are watching every step in my marriage life. I feel like I move 1 step forward and 3 step backward. I am not happy. The good thing in this marriage is I have Chloe. Besides that, well I can say its only temporary happiness. Are you happy in your marriage? What is the reason that you have to keep your marriage life going on? I burnt out. I dont have reasons now. Only one. Chloe.
If she decided she doesnt want me anymore, I will be gone.

Exam day today

Xinlong is taking CPA course and today having his first exam. Most difficult subject but I think he can do it. Cia you lao gong!
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Dinner with my sister

My sis and I were having dinner at soup spoon tg pagar last night. So glad I can do this. We've been too long not having dinner together since I was very busy with Chloe and my new job. Maybe I should make a reminder in my HP to schedule dinner out with my sis every now and then.. :P

First dress I made for Chloe

Finally I decided to make a dress for Chloe after contemplating for months (after borrowing some sewing magazines and think to myself I can do this). What do you think of the dress?
Here is Chloe wearing the dress! Cute little Chloe :)
I think it looks nice...hehe. Mind you this is made by someone who dont know how to sew and never take any courses before (only borrow some sewing magazines and do try and errors:P.)

Testing

Dearest baby
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