End of year 2011! Welcome 2012.

I am so grateful I had this blog so that I can look back and see what has happened thru the year of 2011. So many wonderful things happened... and also some bitterness and sadness but I made it through all that.
Thank You God for leading me all the way to the end of the year.

My resolutions for the coming year 2012 are:
- getting more relationship with You Lord,
- balancing my time with work and family
- be more patience and wiser (help me God)
- be a good mother for Chloe
- and maybe get lil brother for Chloe? he he.. (with God's Grace it will happen!)

I have so many things I want to do in 2012, but the list above is my priorities. So please help me God!
Amen.

Christmas in my house

It is our first time celebrating Christmas in our house.We had a lot of fun and joy. I am very grateful and really hope that we can carry on with this Christmas celebrations every year. I am so happy. Thank You Lord for making all this happen. I love You so much. I am having a very merry Christmas this year.

Food are prepared...

We feast...

 

Have a cheesecake (I made myself) for dessert...

Having my mum and sis to celebrate Christmas with me...

with Chloe and my goddaughter (their 1st Christmas in our house!)

and my Christmas tree..

And we're giving X'mas presents to everyone...

 

 

I am so happy to see us all can be together celebrating Christmas.

Merry Christmas! God bless!

We wish you a Merry Christmas...

and a Happy New Year!

My Christmas tree is here

and although it is not look like this..

or this..

but I love it very much! because it is mine :P
Have a merry Christmas everyone!

Potty training!

in pictures...
LOL..

Another dress I made for Chloe..

and it looks better than the first one I made (see here) but some parts still need some sewing skills (which I still lack of) but overall it is a beautiful party dress.
Cost of it : $5. and it is for the strawberry accesories only. The rest of it is free (fabrics given by my sis and threads I already have it with me hehe..)


love love love it.. (hmm maybe I can start an etsy shop :) hehe)

My Christmas gift for Xl's Grandpa

I was thinking of giving him something that he doesn't have. So I give him a photo framed...of him and Chloe.Hope he likes it :)

DIY - New ironing board cover

I am practising my sewing skills by making this ironing board cover. I know there are a lot of bloggers out there who did this and give the instructions in details of how to do it but mine is just basically do try and errors. So while it is not the most neat sewing but I am very satisfied with the outcome. You can see it for yourself and give your honest comments.I feel more confident now with my sewing skills. Planning to do more sewing now.. hmm maybe pillow covers, cushion covers, or maybe chair covers.. hmmm just maybe :P

And here is the Ali G baby..

Happiness is....

seeing your little baby sleeps peacefully. It makes me wanna stop the time and savor this moment... forever.
Have a nice day everyone!

Dinner date with hubby!

Dinner at soup spoon bugis

It is a reminder to myself that..

Happy Birthday dear Xinlong

Love you Honey! Have a wonderful day today because it is your birthday!

Here is birthday card made by your Goddaughter :P and I know you'll love it!

Letter to my cousin..

Today, 28 nov 2011, you are being called home to be with Our Father in Heaven. I still can't believe it... You are just too young (this 12 Dec is your 30th bday). Last week you are still among us and now you are gone. Just like that. I know that God has bigger plan that not one of us can understand and I believe He is doing the best thing for all of us. I am praying for your parent, your brother and your lovely wife to be able to accept the fact that you are no longer here with us and you are much happier 'up there' :). I trust You O Lord. Be rest in peace my cousin. You are truly missed by all of us here on earth. Till we meet again in Heaven brother!

Love.
your cousin
M

About Thanks and Giving!

Today I came across this very touching story of a little baby boy named Cohen ( you can read his story at http://www.inthiswonderfullife.com/p/cohens-story_01.html) He lived for only 12 days and finally rest peacefully with Jesus in heaven. His story made me cry because I know it must be very painful to loose someone you love so deeply especially your own son. I know I got this message not by coincident, it is God Himself speaks to me.
He wants me to always be grateful and find myself in peace with everything that happens in my life. Especially this year, where so many unwanted feelings and negative situations at one point in my life happened.
I need to stop thinking of negative sort of feelings because in the end God knows what is best for me and this year
He gave me this beautiful baby. Her name is Chloe. She is such a blessing for me and I should embrace all the moments I have with her.

Thank You O Lord for this wonderful message. I should not take anything for granted and be thankful always.

Thank You God. You are so good to me. This has been a very special year for us and I am blessed to know You.

Now to all of you, I hope you are surrounded by all the people you love and be thankful for all the blessings in your life where ever you are today.

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It’s not our home

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

This is a song called “Blessings” by Laura Story. It is a beautiful song that reminds us to always be thankful for every little things and not just the obvious blessings.

Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends!

It is a reminder to myself that..

I will have this moments one day...

pic via. KatieLloydPhotography (http://www.etsy.com/shop/KatieLloydPhoto)

To not compare

This morning I felt terribly upset.. over small tiny little thing which is always said by my husband everytime got the chance. My husband always and always and always said my hair is not smooth and very thick and rough. He did it all the time and never realized it hurts me.

All the time.

I am angry. Upset but mostly sad because deep down I know I cant change it. It is just my hair 'type'. I tried applying some moisturiser, do some rebonding, cut it short. Nothing change.

Most hurting is when he said it and compare it with our Chloe's hair. If you want to tell me Chloe's hair is very nice, smooth and all the good things, I am more than happy. But please dont compare it with mine. It hurts. Even more hurting when you said it infront of your mother, which of course make it feel worse than anything.

I am really angry. But I dont know why. Jealousy creeps in I think..

So when I reach office I on my computer and find some peace (which I know I'll find by reading some good stuff/blogs) and first thing I type is this blog : http://pearlsandgrace.blogspot.com/

And God speaks to me. thru that blog. How He created me and loves me all the time.
I cry. It is so true. God shows me to be grateful of what I had instead of comparing with others.
I cry again. Now I feel okay to be just ordinary 'me' . The only 'me' in the world. God loves me.

Thank You God for your answer. It speaks directly to me. No matter how I put it in words, I cant describe how You have worked it out way before I even feel this way. ( you may notice that the blog was written on 11 Nov 2011 and I just read it now. at this moment. )

You are wonderful God and I am blessed every single day. THank You God.

Phoebe's Birthday

Happy Birthday my dear niece. Wishing you all the best things in life!

Breakfast on sunday

After church at suntec, we went for breakfast at burger king

My pledge to GOD

I want to be a better person. God please help me..

Lunch w my hubby at amoy st

Since I changed my job I've been able to go lunch with my hubby every once in awhile. Today we went to eat yong tau fu near his workplace. It is very nice!

Rethinking of my purpose in marriage

Should I or should I not get a ...?
We always argue on small things like : "why you always tidy and retidy and retidy and forgetting where u put ur stuff?"
I would like to see the end of this.
God, I know You are watching every step in my marriage life. I feel like I move 1 step forward and 3 step backward. I am not happy. The good thing in this marriage is I have Chloe. Besides that, well I can say its only temporary happiness. Are you happy in your marriage? What is the reason that you have to keep your marriage life going on? I burnt out. I dont have reasons now. Only one. Chloe.
If she decided she doesnt want me anymore, I will be gone.

Exam day today

Xinlong is taking CPA course and today having his first exam. Most difficult subject but I think he can do it. Cia you lao gong!
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Dinner with my sister

My sis and I were having dinner at soup spoon tg pagar last night. So glad I can do this. We've been too long not having dinner together since I was very busy with Chloe and my new job. Maybe I should make a reminder in my HP to schedule dinner out with my sis every now and then.. :P

First dress I made for Chloe

Finally I decided to make a dress for Chloe after contemplating for months (after borrowing some sewing magazines and think to myself I can do this). What do you think of the dress?
Here is Chloe wearing the dress! Cute little Chloe :)
I think it looks nice...hehe. Mind you this is made by someone who dont know how to sew and never take any courses before (only borrow some sewing magazines and do try and errors:P.)

Testing

Dearest baby
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